My life is a roller coaster right now. An actual roller coaster! One minute I'm fine, the next I'm about to break down. I know that this is completely normal, but it's really hard to live life this way.
A parent just wrote me and mentioned that her kid is so curious about how I can be doing so well after losing my grandparents. That's because when I saw the kid, I was doing great! But by the time I got home, I was a mess.
I know I just got back to work, but I am so ready for this weekend. I'm ready to get away. I think I'm starting to debrief and to hit reality.
And as the truth comes out, it turns out I'm not doing as well as I thought I was.
I'm hurting.
From laughter to tears in 10 minutes. Wow. The record of life.
Also keeping another friend and fellow blogger in my prayers as I write this, knowing that she has a big anniversary coming up tomorrow. Thinking of you, and remembering what a special man your dad was!
I dont know how it is to lose grandparents (though 3 of them passed away when I was not yet born/really young). But I do understand how you feel. It's still really hard. And my emotions can go up to down in minutes. The thing that has helped me THE most, besides the support of my family and friends, and being open to talking about it with them, is reading the word. Particularly I go through the Psalms. Praying or singing hymns and worship songs to myself too.
ReplyDeletePraying for you. And thank you for your support.
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