Ashamed.

Tomorrow is youth Sunday.  It's the day that the youth group leads the church in worship.  Each year comes with its own stresses and surprises.  And each year, as much as I claim that it is about the youth leading the church in worship, I am amazed at how God speaks to me for the week leading up to it.
This year is no different.
Our theme this year is faith.  The youth wanted to focus on having the faith of a mustard seed, and how it can move mountains.  We have a boy who has written an INCREDIBLE sermonette, and I can't wait for him to give it.  He's in 6th grade, but he could not have wrapped the message up any better if he was a doctorate.  But that's beside the point.
One of the skits that the girls are doing is about praying with faith.
It's that old story of people praying for rain, yet only one person brought an umbrella.
As much as I think that I have faith, tonight I realized that I never bring my umbrella.
One of my old students was in a car accident today.  I got the news late this evening that he had been life flighted.  I freaked out.  I prayed.  I was on the verge of a meltdown.  I asked others to pray.  As I drove to pick up a friend from the airport, I convinced myself that this student had died.  I cried.  I hurt. And then I had my wake up call.
If I was praying for this boy, and believing that God would heal him, how come he went so quickly to death?  I did not even give this boy the chance to live in my mind.  He did not break any bones.  He was not in a coma.  No, in my mind, he died.
Praying with faith means to bring the umbrella, right?  So praying for Mason, I should have believed that God would work a miracle, right?
So, I had my "come to" moment, and I began to pray with faith.  By the time I made it to the airport and was able to get an update, I found out that Mason is fine.  No broken bones, just a few scratches.  He's okay!  He's not dead!
So, why did I jump to loss, rather than life?
Where was my faith?  Where is my faith?
I have a lot to learn!
Each day I am reminded that God is good!  And as I stress about tomorrow, I need to remember that God is good!  He has it all in His control!  The message will come across, God will speak.  Faith will move mountains, and lives will be touched.  God is in control!
Yes, God is in control, and God is good!
Now, hopefully as I pray and put this all in God's hands, I will be able to sleep tonight.
God is good, and will not let us disappoint Him...we CANNOT disappoint Him!
Have faith.