Thoughts

I've had a lot moving through my mind today. Nothing has spurred these thoughts, just a part of the emotional roller coaster that is grief. My last conversation with my Grandpa was very vivid in my mind today. I really miss him. I can't believe that it was just 4 months ago that I lost my Grandma. And with that, began the summer that forever changed my family.

This morning I watched my baby nephew, Wes. He was so sleepy, but wouldn't lay down, so I held him all morning as he slept. The last time I held him in that way was at the funerals. We would nap together. It was so beautiful. I have such a connection, or a bond, with Wes, and I think that it all goes back to what I call "funeral time." For that, I am grateful. I love this little guy! I treasure these moments. I'm not ready for him to grow up. He'll never know why, but that will always be our bond!

So, today was spent rejoicing with Wes, and missing my Grandma and Grandpa.