OCD much?

My roommates are doing personality tests tonight. I am a classic ENFP. But one roommate started saying that she thinks I'm a judger vs. Perceiver. I have taken this test numerous times, and rank high on the perceiver scale. After she said this, the other roommate jumped on board to say I'm a judger. So, I went and looked it up to see.

The following statements generally apply to me:

• I like to stay open to respond to whatever happens.
• I appear to be loose and casual. I like to keep plans to a minimum.
• I like to approach work as play or mix work and play.
• I work in bursts of energy.
• I am stimulated by an approaching deadline.
• Sometimes I stay open to new information so long I miss making decisions when they are needed.

I am clearly a P. I don't know why this bothered me so much. I mean, why does it matter what they think? And even so, it's probably better to be a Judger with the rest of the world. But for some reason, I felt the need to validate myself. I won't share this information with them, but I just had to know for myself. Why is it so important to me that a test tell me who I am?

I'm so irritated right now. Not with them, but to my reaction to the situation. It's my OCD coming out at it's best. Why? Why does it matter?

This is so irrelevant.

Rain is a good thing

Today's rain seems to have washed away all of my stress, and give me a sense of calmness. However, it did also make me highly unmotivated. But I can enjoy a nice storm once in a blue moon, right?

The thing is, I did get up...go for a run...and am now super motivated. However, I'm still back in my pajamas, because tonight is pajama night at youth group. Here's hoping I stay motivated in this sweet comfort!

Thoughts

I've had a lot moving through my mind today. Nothing has spurred these thoughts, just a part of the emotional roller coaster that is grief. My last conversation with my Grandpa was very vivid in my mind today. I really miss him. I can't believe that it was just 4 months ago that I lost my Grandma. And with that, began the summer that forever changed my family.

This morning I watched my baby nephew, Wes. He was so sleepy, but wouldn't lay down, so I held him all morning as he slept. The last time I held him in that way was at the funerals. We would nap together. It was so beautiful. I have such a connection, or a bond, with Wes, and I think that it all goes back to what I call "funeral time." For that, I am grateful. I love this little guy! I treasure these moments. I'm not ready for him to grow up. He'll never know why, but that will always be our bond!

So, today was spent rejoicing with Wes, and missing my Grandma and Grandpa.

Running

Today was my longest run yet. 2.5 miles. I'm almost to my goal!

I like to think that I'm enjoying it more, but I'm really not there yet! I like being done with the run, I am proud for all that I have accomplished, and I'm even in the process of signing up for a 10k race. However, I'm still having a hard time getting motivated! If I wasn't dedicating these runs, I think I would be walking half way! The dedications were a good idea, because now I can't give up! I think the 5k will be fairly easy from here. I just need to keep finding motivation!

SCENTSY!!!

Well, after turning all of my friends on to Scentsy...they finally convinced me, and I am now a Scentsy consultant! I have my first party tomorrow! I'm very excited! The pumpkin muffins are baking in the oven, and I have my alarm set for 8am, so that I can make the caramel rolls before I go to Portland on our Arepa Extraveganza! It will be a long, busy day, but I'm really excited about it! I'm even thinking about throwing a run into the mix before the day begins! Who AM I?!?! I just figure that if I run a little bit in the morning, I will feel less about eating the fried food and treats in the afternoon! :)

I'm excited for tomorrow! It's going to be a great day!

Ugh!

After such a great night last night, tonight is one of those nights that make me want to retire!

Ugh! Praying that God did something through the midst of it all!

Excitement

Tonight has been one of those nights where I'm really excited about youth ministry. I had a very productive day, but the highlight was at my meeting tonight. I have a student "interning" under me for a school project, and I started thinking about the different projects or job shadows that I have worked with kids on. I love it! I love my job! I'm so excited to be doing this, and so blessed to see how youth ministry effects their lives. It is so encouraging. Hopefully they are taking at least a chunk of it with them into the real world!

Death

As if this year hasn't been hard enough on my family. This year we lost numerous friends, my grandparents, a cousin, 2 best friends, and tonight, my parents had to put down their cat. Seriously, I'm ready for this year to be over.