Dinner

One of my favorite things in life has become cooking. Unfortunately, my meals don't always turn out that well! For example, the now "traditional" messed up blueberry coffee cake that I serve at every GCE planning meeting!

Anyways, I'm trying a new recipe tonight! I'm so excited about it! I don't know if it will be any good, but just having time to cook, means that I have a night off. And, that, to me is a WIN!!!

I didn't do today what I had planned to do, but it's okay! I've got tomorrow, and tomorrow is a new day!

For tonight, I am enjoying a dinner at home, and maybe a chance to put some shelves together for my game room. Who knows! Maybe I'll be crazy and clean my room! Either way, tonight is mine.

WIN!!!

Life of adventure or stuck in a rut?

I've been reading a bunch of blogs tonight, catching up on old friends, and what not. It seems like almost everyone has a blog about their family and kids. I feel like I'm missing out on something. It's such a weird thing, because I do appreciate the freedom of my life, and that I can do what I want, when I want to. I love sleeping in and staying out late, but I just feel like I'm missing out on something. It's such a weird thing to complain about, since I don't even put myself out there. I just always believed that God would bring that perfect guy to me. Unfortunately, when I thought he had, the guy didn't get the same message! Oh well, all in God's plan.

I guess I'm kind of feeling sorry for myself tonight. Truth is, I can't wait to get married and have a family. But at the same time, I really do love and enjoy my life right now. I don't want to grow up! I love having my game room outside. Planning parties for the youth group. I love having "pick me up" nights in Portland... you know, where a friend calls and you head out the door at 9:30pm to go meet them at some random pub.

It's a weird mix of feeling like I have everything, and that I'm missing out on something big. I just don't want my ENTIRE life to be the youth group. I don't think that's healthy, but I sure do enjoy them and our crazy last minute get togethers. I guess I associate having a family with having balance, and that's not true if you don't work for it.

Maybe I shouldn't be blogging so late at night, I don't feel like I'm making much sense, and I think I'm being too vulnerable.

So, if you're reading this, just know, I am content with life, and excited for the changes of the future!

Also, my favorite thing about being single, is traveling! I love that I can pick up and go, and go to amazing places! I'm not sure that I'm ready to give that up!

The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence. But in reality, I've got a pretty good life! I'm too selfish to give it up! If I could just have the best of both worlds...

Race #2

Race #2= SUCCESS!!! I did it, a two race weekend! I feel great! I'm debating about taking tomorrow off or not. I'll see how I feel. Either way, I'm taking it light. I was supposed to do a 5 mile run tomorrow for my training, but I'll see. I may just do a 3 or 4 miler, and do the 5 next week. I think I'm back to the place of enjoying running, which is a good place to be! Now, I hope I can keep this up through Suttle Lake camp. That's the only week of my summer that I'm worried about, but I've got one more month to prepare!

It was fun to run with my kiddos today, and to be a part of the community with them.

Good times!

And now, the H2O challenge is over. I've had my cup of coffee, so you can believe there will be no Sunday afternoon nap! But I have a quiet house, and a few hours to kill. A nice relaxing afternoon at home. You gotta love it! I am grateful!

Back on track

After gaining back almost 20 pounds, today I kicked off healthy eating again! So far, so good! I started this morning running a 5k. I may have gained back some weight, but I'm still ahead of where I was a year ago! I still can't believe it! I'M signing up to run stuff for fun!?! Tomorrow I have another 5k, and afterwards will have a big cup of coffee, because our water challenge will be over! I swear, by cutting out drinks, I made up for the loss with chocolate chip cookies, and found myself in a world of trouble! Oh well, today is a new day! And tomorrow will be too!

It feels good to be making some changes in my life. I am thankful for friends who keep me accountable, and encourage me along this journey. They say good friends are hard to find, well, I consider myself extra blessed!